xA- (Offline)

• Level 90
• 10 year ago

In my restless dreams,I see that town.Silent Hill.You promised me you'd take methere again someday.But you never did.Well, I'm alone there now...In our 'special place'...Waiting for you...Waiting for you tocome to see me.But you never do.And so I wait, wrapped in mycocoon of pain and loneliness.I know I've done a terriblething to you. Something you'llnever forgive me for.I wish I could changethat, but I can't.I feel so pathetic and uglylaying here, waiting for you...Every day I stare up at the cracksin the ceiling and all I can thinkabout is how unfair it all is...The doctor came today.He told me I could gohome for a short stay.It’s not that I'm getting better.It’s just that this may bemy last chance...I think you know what I mean...Even so, I'm glad to be cominghome. I've missed you terribly.But I'm afraid, James.I'm afraid you don't reallywant me to come home.Whenever you come see me,I can tell how hard it is on you...I don't know if youhate me or pity me...Or maybe I just disgust you...I'm sorry about that.When I first learned thatI was going to die, I justdidn't want to accept it.I was so angry all the time and Istruck out at everyone I loved most.Especially you, James.That's why I understandif you do hate me.But I want you toknow this, James.I'll always love you.Even though our life together hadto end like this, I still wouldn'ttrade it for the world. We hadsome wonderful years together.Well, this letter has gone ontoo long, so I'll say goodbye.I told the nurse to givethis to you after I'm gone.That means that as you readthis, I'm already dead.I can't tell you to remember me,but I can't bear for you toforget me.These last few years since Ibecame ill... I'm so sorry forwhat I did to you, did to us...You've given me so much andI haven't been able to returna single thing.That's why I want you to livefor yourself now.Do what's best for you, James.James...You made me happy.